Sometimes you have to be cold; you have to be picture perfect; a beast; a statue; a soldier in the face of adversity. The world is not built to be your friend; it's more so built to be a vast obstacle course full of pitfalls, traps, and most of all amazing possibilities. The pitfalls and traps come much easier than the possibilities. It's arguably easier to fail in this world than it is to do something to better yourself, because those who have access to the possibilities will deny you until you prove you're worthy. You have to walk around with a little ice in your veins to deal with those cold moments; the moments that feel like you're about to break because there's no possible way you will get to where you want to be. If you can hang on, just after failure, just after being kicked in your teeth over and over again- there comes greatness.
When I was young, one of the only "choirs" I had when I was with my Godfather was to read books. I would have to go in a room, no t.v., no distractions, for thirty minutes on every weekday in the summer and read. To top it off, after I read a book that he'd likely never read, I'd have to write a book report about it. At first, I was extremely resistant. I would sit in the silent room and pretend to read; listening to other kids play outside. It made me so angry to think that I was missing out on thirty whole minutes of my day, my summer, because I had to read. I really didn't see the purpose of it.
One day I realized how foolish it was to waste my time doing nothing, so I picked up the book that I only picked out because it had a cool cover, and I began to read. The book was Nancy Drew: The Invisible Intruder. It wasn't the first book I'd ever read, but it was the first one that really mattered. From that point on, I can remember reading Nancy Drew books back to back to back. I was fascinated that anyone could write so many books on the same subject matter over and over again, but still be good enough at it to stay relevant. I've never met Carolyn Keene and I never will. The name is just a pseudonym for many writers of the Nancy Drew Series, but what that name meant to me as a young girl is that anything is possible if you do more than just believe in it; you keep at it.
You have to do something over an infinite number of times before you reap the benefits. This is why so few carry out their goals. It's extremely difficult to stay persistent. Persistence is a job that may not initially pay off. "One hit wonders" in any industry come far and few between, but they come and go. Longevity takes an extraordinary amount of dedication. You may practice something a thousand times, but if someone else is practicing and auditioning for the same thing- you have to practice a thousand and one times to have a chance at edging them out; even then you may not win the first battle.
Life can be like a playoff series; maybe you lose the first couple games but the object is to win the most games in the series. It's never over until it's over. Successful people repeat successful habits. It's no consequence that if you commit to going to the gym five days a week, and you actually work hard while you're there, you will eventually see results. If you commit to going to the gym, but get there and sit on the bench watching others do work, results will never come. You have to have a sense of urgency about achieving your goals, and you cannot fear your opponents.
You must have ice in your veins to press through this sometimes cold reality of the world. Anything worth having is worth working for. When we were kids we dreamed because life, the world, what it all means- was still a miraculous idea. The little girl reading the Nancy Drew books and writing the book reports, turned into an avid writer. There's something to be said about practicing good habits. As I continue to find my niche in this competitive and sometimes ruthless world we live in, I'll remember to carry ice in my veins in the face of adversity; but most of all I'll remember that the world is full of great possibilities when you work persistently at what you believe.